Unlike Before

Nothing was the same
Everything has changed
Freedom turns with limit
I start to say “BEAT IT!”

Not everything was better
Not everything was worse
But I hate all things around me
Except for this little girl

I can not see beauty of what I am doing
I feel stagnant and disputed
I am less than what I am before
But I have more than what I have before

Since everything has turned my patience out
All I ever wanted to do now is shout
“Lord, please help me! I’m in despair.
I believe in you that my heart, You will repair!”

11/15/14

Sunday the Great

What a wonderful day though it started quite not the way anybody would want a day to start!

I thank God for this day that He has given me the chance to learn something new, well at least it was something I learned before and is needed some refreshing for me to be able to understand and apply it again but this time – the right way!

Thank God for Pastor Tanny’s preaching today (w/c I heard and watched at Ustream) for letting us know that we shouldn’t be leaders thus we should be fathers who is just like the father of the Prodigal son that even though his son had hurt him and his son could be called a ‘disgrace’ to the family – he still welcomed him like a Prince not a servant. Just like what I heard at the preaching – We are called to love according to the Love of our Father.

We do not look at people on what they’ve done before or who they are before but we always look at the amazing things that God has planned for your life!

Thank God also for Kuya EG who taught us how to overcome fear of commitment and explaining us what commitment is. I thank God for the small group session where we get to strengthen each other and think of ways how we could help each other.

I thank God for the anointing I’ve received today from my mentor, the words that the Lord has given her for me – I know I am blessed, I am on my way THERE! This time, I’ve heard the answer on my question on why am I experiencing these things – just like Pastor said, it’s the finishing touch. It is needed so the final product will be beautiful and precious. I wouldn’t tolerate one more round, I’m getting kinda sick of it.

I get to sing again for my Love, my God, my Saviour, my Provider, my Healer, my Refuge, my Strength, my Husband, my Everything. It was just so amazing seeing His beautiful face.

Once again, it is a wonderful full of Pandesal day!,